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I feel like I have to ultimately come clean about something I've been keeping to myself regarding the other fics that were written in the midst of the writing process and overall completion of Truth and Ideals. Digimon Re: Adventure, Sword Art Online: Special Edition, Digimon Re: Tamers, Reflection Code, and, naturally, the ill-fated original pitch for DinoSquad RX.

Simply in part of the fact they all were neglected by virtue of my priorities in writing being so extensively focused on Truth and Ideals that it ultimately burned me out with trying to complete each of them in a proper time frame, and has led to a constant downward spiral in update frequency in each of these fics not named Truth and Ideals. It just kind of made things more or less into a job than any actual attempt to start a serious setting of fics overall.

That is why I have ultimately made the decision to scrap Digimon Re: Adventure, Digimon Re: Tamers, Sword Art Online: Special Edition, Reflection Code, and then perform a soft reboot of a restart with Digimon Re: Tamers 7D6 which would have a different title this time, and then soft rebooting DinoSquad RX -Genesis-, which would simply be renamed back to DinoSquad RX. So far this means those aforementioned fics will be locked away somewhere, to serve as a case study on why exactly I had failed with each of them individually, only to use their ailing states to prop up Truth and Ideals onto an even greater pedestal than it honestly had any reason to get.

I am deeply sorry for all of the misguided decisions I have made with writing over the past several years, and how I have failed to remedy a lot of the problems I had with writing and maintaining fics ever since Truth and Ideals was completed over 4 years ago. I feel incredible pain knowing that my plans for Citadel of the Heart currently lay within ruin for the time being; I hope you all will understand that I am now trying to remedy things to the best of my abilities in what stories I've not mentioned yet, due to having no desire from which to neglect them and ultimately see them through to the end.

Shadow Heat is currently on hiatus only because of the fact Tenebra the Umbreon was modeled behavior wise after one of my old dogs who had passed away during the making of the fic back when I was in the middle of posting the first several chapters.

Diary of an Analog is going absolutely nowhere; nothing is going to change that in the foreseeable future.

Starlight Ablaze, Digimon Re: Tamers 7D6, and DinoSquad RX -Genesis- will undergo a reboot and not be posted at all until I have a prologue I am truly happy with.

Truth and Ideals will be forever a reminder of my past til the end of time, warts and all, about how I came to be where I am today, the ill deeds, along with the good, that the history of this fic had lead me to develop as a writer.

Thanks in advance for reading and I hope you understand why this hurts in the way I am feeling about this as well. Typing up this journal was necessary, but it was never going to be easy for me to withstand.

Addendum 1: For those also wondering about The Champion's Successor, that fic also won't be going anywhere, but for a while it was on hiatus about a month or so prior to the release of Brilliant Diamond and Shining Pearl because at that point I had decided to wait til at least one week post-launch to see what changes were made to the games that would possibly cause me to alter a few things which happen in The Champion's Successor at least when it comes to Pokémon used by specific Gym Leaders, Elite Four, Cynthia, Lucas, or Barry. To think I never considered the possibility of it being til after the game's release that I would effectively have to scrap my whole plan regarding Lucas' team once I had learned they promoted the opposite gender player character to a bonus boss.

tl;dr, the story is on pseudo-hiatus which means it will be updated less frequently than normal because I am currently in the midst of doing continued research on it from Brilliant Diamond and Shining Pearl's gameplay I'm going through and analyzing.

Edit 1: I fixed some of the errors in this post, such as how specific deaths in my family were originally listed to happen about a year after when they actually happened. For example, I incorrectly listed my grandpa's death as having happened after Christmas of 2019 when in reality it was Christmas of 2018. Same goes for the sheepdog dying in 2020 only for it to actually be within 2019 she died. The German Shepherd and my uncle dying in 2021 was and is correct, though.

The fic will be undergoing a soft reboot, so to speak, under the new name of "Digimon Re: Tamers 7D6", due to the misfortunes I've been having with Digimon Re: Tamers over some rather dubious writing decisions which I felt ruined some potential plot threads, and also the fact even when I had attempted to get back on track, a lot of Reality Subtext was going on with the newer chapters and I wanted to basically be Distanced From Current Events with how I'll be handling Digimon Re: Tamers 7D6.

The original Digimon Re: Tamers will still be up for viewing, unlike what happened with DinoSquad RX, but it will no longer be updated. It's existing pages will all be used as a reference point for how to better improve things with Digimon Re: Tamers 7D6, but they will not hold the absolute authority over how the new story will be in regards to it's former self.

A lot of shit had happened over the past 3 years, to put things bluntly. My Grandpa died just after Christmas of 2018, my PC's original hard drive also died before then, my sheepdog died in early 2019, and then my German Shepard which was the last reminder of my Grandpa died in very early 2021, and then to add insult to injury, one particular uncle I was rather close to from that side of the family died literally a month later. So ya there was a wonderful room of death going on within my family to say the least, I've had to deal with increasing doses in my medication due to increased levels of anxiety going on in my daily life, and then there's the fucking pandemic which more or less tainted the 2020 decade for me before it even had a chance to get to the halfway point.

So ya, I don't have a definitive release date for Digimon Re: Tamers 7D6, but like with all of my fics, I have no set schedule for when I'll begin to work on it. As a matter of fact, it has been recommended to me by a lot of my friends on Discord to actually take a break from writing altogether until I feel better overall emotionally, so that my currently still unstable emotions don't lead to me making any mistakes in my writing like with what happened to the original Digimon Re: Tamers.

WARNING: Chapter 10-11 spoilers ahead for Diary of an Analog:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/24821419/chapters/60036154

In case anybody gets confused with recent developments in Chapter 11 of Diary of an Analog, here's some reference notes to hold you over until I can actually better explain it in-story.

1995: Botamon is born in Japan in the Yagami household. In the Dub of the movie, both Terriermon and Lopmon were born not long afterwards in America to Willis. However, Lopmon does not get born here; only Terriermon does.

1999: Willis begins to develop a computer program which would allow him to create a synthetic Digimon as a twin of Terriermon. He nicknamed it "Lopmon". However, the holidays had got him distracted from his work, leading to him not checking the software's scans as the Year 2000 hit, causing the Y2K Bug to adversely affect it.

Y2K: Yggdrasil's systems scans Lopmon's software while trying to switch the Calendar days, causing Yggdrasil to malfunction and proceed to download bits and pieces of Lopmon's data into every single Digitama generated at this point. This would lead to every single Digitama at this point being able to achieve a maximum of Mega Level outright as opposed to only being given Champion by default. Lopmon's mental data is lost somewhere while scanning, and becomes a highly sought after piece of data that would fuel a lot of the motivation behind the actions Kuramon would do several months from now.

2000: Summer arrives, and Kuramon hatches after finally having developed just bare-minimum mental capacity, and proceeds to go on a data feast due to being born within Willis' computer and not the Digital World proper like any other Digimon. Kuramon rapidly grows from Baby to Mega Level within 24 hours but does not mentally develop enough to handle it's own power. It is seeking the programmer so it can locate the missing fraction of it's data which had disappeared, indicating it wants to become whole with the data it had lost while in limbo. Willis pleads with his friend Izzy to stop Diablomon's rampage, as through Tai and Matt those plans succeed with WarGreymon and MetalGarurumon Combining into Omegamon and terminating Diablomon on the spot. Diablomon's remnant data disperses, as if attempting to defy it's own death and try and figure out how to reformat itself and locate it's missing data, a search that would be radio silent for at least another 2 years.

2002: T.K. has nightmares foreshadowing Patamon and Gatomon's encounter with the reformed Diablomon, but is unable to make heads or tails of it right away. This about 1 month before school starts.

2002: Night after the 1st day of school in Odaiba, but just shy of the morning sunrise. Diablomon's data reassembles itself and doesn't initially realize where it is now until in an attempt to devour Patamon and absorbing the energy of several Dark Towers and from Infinity Mountain. Diablomon falters a bit, and gets head in the head with a Celestial Arrow from Angewomon who saves Patamon from Diablomon as Patamon Warp Digivolves to MagnaAngemon. Diablomon's behavior is erratic but oddly idle; it realizes that it's current form is of a Digimon unaffiliated with either Darkness nor Light, but it must be exposed directly both elements to seek the reformatting code it needs to truly awaken as a true Digimon. MagnaAngemon and Angewomon proceed to restrain Diablomon and are met with only minimal resistance, as MagnaAngemon and Angewomon approach Diablomon as though realizing what actually is going on in it's mind. After a moment of being restrained by Light, it absorbs the holy restraints into itself like it did the Dark Towers, and successfully revitalizes itself as Lopmon. However, it is about 2 years behind on current events, and it's mind is kind of bugged despite otherwise being able to learn at a more normal pace now. On the plus side, it has control over both of it's potential Dark and Light based Digivolutions, as it is technically still not affiliated with either or much like Diablomon itself was, meaning this much at minimum was retained from Diablomon.

So I've been on a hiatus period regarding my literature works and my artwork for a good while now. Aside from Mabinogi, which there's a reason why that hasn't been on hiatus, my artwork and literature work were both beginning to eat away at my sanity over the past few months due to an increasing desperation to force myself to work on them even in spite of burnout I was feeling. I am slowly beginning to recover, but I can't promise when any new updates are due to be out; all of the fics thus far within Citadel of the Heart will continue to be updated, but please, be patient with me for even with having spent a month off from writing, my sanity is very delicate right now. I just have to cope with video games and stuff I like to do in my spare time to keep my mind both occupied like I'd want but also to avoid any stressful situations such as feeling pressured by overworking myself to please others. That is primarily the reason why Mabinogi still persists to be a part of my daily routine, and why literature and artwork have both taken a temporary backseat to my gaming life.

So Chapter 25 of Sword Art Online: Special Edition is up at long last, and needless to say there is a lot of Reality Subtext regarding the whole fear and courage bits involved with this being the debut of Dragora Galaxia.

This chapter being uploaded at all had me rather scared to say the least, mostly stemming from the fact Dragora Galaxia is a rather controversial character of mine who under almost every circumstance is completely alien to whatever setting he's put in. I was scared about actually making the chapter as it is now available, considering much like Digimon Re: Tamers or Digimon Re: Adventure, I could've very easily opted to perform a cop-out of some sort and adhere to the Status Quo in at least some capacity, even if the decision would've made me loathe myself even more. Instead, what did I do?

Well much like my boy Chronicler, I was adamant in refusing to showcase how afraid I am about the whole prospect of actually continuing the story as intended with Sword Art Online: Special Edition. At the same time, I didn't just pretend the fear flat out isn't there, since it very, very much is. I just chose to power through it and acknowledge it since this whole chapter is basically me facing my own demons in regards to my cowardice as of late as a writer, and how I've been vastly overplaying the whole self-deprecation on my part in regards to negatively comparing myself to infamous fanfic authors all across the internet. I chose to acknowledge said fears of mine I've been having over the past several months, and I chose to power through things either way when it came to Chapter 25 of Sword Art Online Special Edition.

My mentor had told me that real bravery isn't being fearless; it is doing something regardless even as you're still afraid of the thing you're up against in the process. You are still very much afraid when you showcase bravery in the light of things; powering through it regardless is what the definition of true bravery and courage is in all of this.